She looks up at me with those trusting eyes.

And i think; Can it be true?
Could this precious person
who was placed in my care,
be injured that severely without my knowledge?

There must have been some part of me that knew,
or at least questioned.
Why did i ignore it?
Oh G0d!  How could it go un-noticed?

i know; i’m told “Don’t blame yourself”.
But I’m not completely innocent;
she was in my care. I should have noticed !
i should have …  … but i didn’t.

i just have to do the best i can
… now.
Written 1990 Jun 17.  Illustration by daughter Charlene.

-Wrote this when my name was still “Belinda”
(aka Truthful Kindness after name-change)

… and the same day, i wrote “Not MY Daughter !!!” >> https://truthfulkindness.com/bnp/part-2/2e/not-my-daughter/

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UPDATE:  ((Previously, i had a notice here at base of each entry with announcement and Logo for HealthLine 2019 Best Alz Blogs.  To my surprise, after HealthLine contacted me in January with fact that i was included in 2019 Best Alz Blogs, then announcing it publically on March 18, ten days later they decided against including writers with Mild Cognitive Impairment, and removed this blog from their listing, leaving only one first-person perspective.  Now i am deleting each of those announcements of my inclusion on HealthLine Best Alz Blogs for 2019.  i hope they soon decide to include at least one other first-person perspective in their “Best Alzheimers Blogs”.)) >> https://www.healthline.com/health/alzheimers-disease/best-blogs-of-the-year