Feeling Vulnerable

Admin note: “Vulnerable” synonyms: defenseless, exposed, unprotected .

This is from my friend Cindy Odell (living with FTD, fronto-temporal type of dementia):

… I had never thought of it as “vulnerable”, but I sure do! ((feel vulnerable))
 
As I have lost abilities, mental and physical, I have to rely on others.
I have always been the “take charge” person who everyone turned to.
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As FTD has worsened, I now must rely on others for most everything.
This has proved to steal my independence, endanger me and leave me vulnerable.
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Simple things like not showering if someone is not within earshot,
going to doctors visits without my daughter going in the exam room with me,
using a stepstool to get something I want (and with FTD, I want it NOW. I will admit to a couple falls because noone is available right then).
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I can no longer control my finances. My daughter does it and it scares me.
Before moving in with her, I had a caregiver who stole dozens and dozens of things from my home, stole money from my “emergency cash box”. Fortunately, I kept a maximum of $50 in there. So many things from my house… from 2 cans of paint to my favorite area rug that was rolled up in the basement for tripping prevention.
The worst? She talked me into signing my car over to her.
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The fear that I would allow that to happen again makes me feel vulnerable for sure.

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I follow the house cleaners around because I am scared they will steal. They haven’t and are licensed and bonded if they did, but I watch anyway.
I lent money to friends and acquaintances that I will never get back.
What if I do it again? That is why I am not allowed to access my money by myself.

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I am so vulnerable to kitchen incidents… setting stove on fire, falling from ladder and stools (because I want it and I want it now!).
Obviously, I could go on and on. Yes… very vulnerable!

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Cindy Odell originally shared this on 05Dec2022.

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Cindy’s blog is at http://www.ftdnoflowers.blogspot.com/ , and her index on my blogsite is at https://truthfulkindness.com/index-persons-with-dementia-pwd/cindy-odell/ .

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Cindy Odell originally shared this on 05Dec2022, with approval on that same date at PRIVATE FaceBook group (so you will not be able to see what is written, but i include this so that i have record of her approval) >> https://www.facebook.com/groups/550981869993555/posts/666499885108419/ .  Final approval in private FB msg on 05Dec2022.  Text Copyright © Cindy Odell on 05Dec2022, but i made a few changes like line-breaks, bold font, etc.  Egg photo by Steve PB on PixaBay at https://pixabay.com/photos/egg-hammer-hit-beat-fragile-583163/ .  i dont mind re-posting of things i write, but if you re-post then i expect you to make it clear this is NOT written by you. My authorship as Truthful Kindness (my legal name) must be clearly identified, and provide very prominent Link to my website so that questions and comments can be addressed to ME personally at http://www.truthfulkindness.com . .
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