Yesterday was bubbly with excitement. One of those rare bright days where ideas move quickly, possibilities feel open, and the mind feels almost light again.
Then came the night.
I slept perhaps two hours before Lewy reclaimed the darkness.
RBD (REM Sleep Behavior Disorder) involves physically acting out vivid dreams during sleep.
For much of March, I battled RBD dreams nearly every night.
Then, beginning March 26, it disappeared completely—until last night. I began quietly wondering if perhaps that particular storm system had finally moved on.
But the nights were never truly calm.
Instead, the symptoms seemed to rotate.
During those weeks without RBD, I instead battled repeated charley-horse type episodes in my feet — sometimes two to six times a night — along with strange temperature disorientation. I could no longer reliably tell whether I was too hot or too cold. Blankets came on. Blankets came off. The body and brain no longer seemed to agree on what the temperature actually was.
Sometimes the rotation is stranger still:
not more confusion,
but more distortion.
Thinking itself may remain relatively intact while vision and sound processing become unstable instead. Sound becomes oddly layered or distant. Vision lags or distorts. The world itself can begin to feel slightly out of synchronization.
The storm does not always hit the same system.
Then last night, after weeks of silence, RBD suddenly returned. Four episodes in a single night.
At 3am, I finally stopped trying to salvage sleep and simply began the day.
I do not know whether symptoms truly “transfer,” medically speaking. But many of us living with Lewy seem to experience something like rotation. One symptom cluster dominates for a while, then quiets as another moves forward into the spotlight.
Not gone.
Not cured.
Simply rearranged.
Lewy rarely moves in straight lines.
Symptoms can vanish for days or weeks, only to return unexpectedly. Improvement in one area may arrive beside worsening somewhere else. Sometimes it feels less like healing or decline, and more like constantly shifting weather patterns moving through the same landscape.
This unpredictability can be emotionally confusing. During good stretches, hope quietly begins to rise. We begin cautiously trusting a little stability again.
Then suddenly, in the middle of the night, old doors reopen.
I think many people misunderstand neurological illness because they expect consistency. But fluctuation is often the reality. The brain does not always fail in orderly ways.
Sometimes it changes costumes instead.
And so we adapt again.
We learn not to measure progress by yesterday’s weather.
Only by whether we are still finding our way through today’s.
One night at a time.
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My personal Facebook profile is under the name “Truthful Kindness,” and you can find more about me on this blog under the “About” tab (although that page was posted long ago and also needs updating). >> https://truthfulkindness.com/about/about-me/ .
Understanding RBD Sleep Behavior Disorder at >> https://truthfulkindness.com/2026/02/08/lewy-lbd-rem-sleep-dreams-2026a/ ;
Hallucination intro at >> https://truthfulkindness.com/2020/01/26/hallucination-types/ ;
More Toilet issues at >> https://truthfulkindness.com/2022/12/04/more-toilet-issues/ ;
Attached Picture:
This painting “LewyMind Weather” was created Jan2023 – years before I found the words to describe what it was trying to say. Again, I mostly used AlainaJensen Acrylic brushes, with Procreate tools on iPad that compensate for my tremors.
Further Reading and Related Concepts on other sites:
For readers who would like to learn more about the many ways Lewy body dementia symptoms can fluctuate, the Lewy Body Dementia Association provides an excellent overview: Understanding Lewy Symptoms. >> https://lbda.org/symptoms ;
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