That would truly love to say thank you to all my family and friends for all their prayers. And I want to thank Jesus for all his love in forgetting the doctors into finding out what was wrong.

Like I said yesterday more than 100 people on my Facebook page are affected by some sort of dementia. I do have a lot of short term memory loss as to day week month year. I have forgotten how to cook I take hot pans out of the oven this is so many different things but one thing I do know for sure it is not Alzheimers.

Even though I’m very grateful that way I don’t have Alzheimers envy that they found all the blood clots in time to save my life I also received a call from a lawyer who wants to file lawsuit against the IVC filter.

Now comes the time how to take back the last 7 years of my life there was my husband and my sister were with me when the doctor said I would be dead in 6 years or I would wake up and not know anybody.

Living with that constant fear
I’m going to sleep
not knowing if you’re going to wake up plays havoc on your life

you become a ship
in you don’t allow yourself to feel
you move away from relationships
because you don’t want people to see you that way
you have nowhere to go except for inside your own pain.

I know I have some sort of dementia
and lock on the focus on it and then age 60 you get another 1% of atrophy every single year that comes along with aging that’s totally normal. I would like to keep you people as friends because I have come to care a great deal for you and your families. I pray for all of you that have dementia in for your caregivers that have to watch you suffer and give up their own lives I’ll need to take care of you. I have been on both sides of the spectrum and I think I’d rather be and caregiver than a patient afraid to go to sleep for fear of death.

If any of you here not to share with me or would like me to leave any of the groups please let me know or delete me.
I have received a lot of support people telling me they don’t have an accurate doses of what kind of dementia they have but I’m more than welcome to stay.
If you do not feel that way and do not carry me in your heart as I do you then please feel free to delete me from your page.
This past year we have lost a lot of people way too many way too young US average people the famous people exactly.

What scares me the most was I was at the point one day of taking my own life because I did not want anybody to find me dead asleep or not have me remember somebody’s day. I was closer to death and then I ever have been how bad would it have been for my family on autopsy to find out that I never had Alzheimers it was perfectly clear in my suicide note that that was the reason why or I would wake up in not know anybody.

Living with that constant fair of going this way not knowing if you go on to wake up please have a gun your life you become a shit in you down allow yourself to sell you move away from relationship cuz she don’t want people to see you that way you have nowhere to go except for inside your own pain.

I know I have some kindss dementia but I’m locking to focus on it and it age you get another one percent of atrophy every single year that comes along with aging that’s totally normal. I would like to keep you people as friends because I have come to care a great deal for you and your family. And pray for all of your that have dementia in for your caregivers that has the watch you suffer and give up their own lies I’ or I would wake up in not know anybody. Living with that constant fear of going this way not knowing if you going to wake up please have a your life you become a shit in you down allow yourself to sell
you move away from relationship
cuz she don’t want people to see you that way
you have nowhere to go except for inside your own pain.

Remember you are forever in my mind and in my heart please feel free to comment and share and like this page.
I would like comment on whether I should continue with this page of my reality coming back