Slipped Further into the Mire

Tru here.  Shaving cream!  I have slipped further and my compensatory tools no longer work.

I was using a matrix to track when I sent Tweets, in order to avoid duplicates and triplicate.  Now I am having too much trouble trying to use Excel that the tool is not helpful.  I am lost in the spreadsheet itself.  Why am I here?  What was I doing?  Instead of every few minutes getting lost, I can’t even get started!

Alarms no longer work because I don’t even know it is my own alarm, and I really don’t care to find out what it wants me to do; I just want the noise to stop.  Alarms have helped for over 5 years, but no longer help now.

Reading aloud no longer helps enough for me to understand sixth grade novels.  It worked for about six months.  I am in the middle of book.  I remember the drawing of bookworm that my sixth grade teacher drew when he visited our home.  Like I said before

this bookworm is running out of books.  (Make that has NOW run out of books.)

Discouraged and tears (having much more problem with words spelled same but different meaning, and words pronounced different but same spelling).  Tears on my face and tears in my dress.  It is much the same feeling.  Is it the same spelling?  Always been very good with spelling but don’t remember now.

Need to re-group and find my new “normal” so that I can gather some new tools.  Oops; did I already write this? (Last month discovered wrote first draft night before and saved, but forgot I wrote it so wrote it again.)  I guess wrote similar blog but three months ago; “My New Normal” at

— 2014-10/12
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9 thoughts on “Slipped Further into the Mire

  1. I cannot even begin to imagine what it’s like for you at this point. All I can say is you are being heard. Strangers are being helped. You are doing the best you can. I hope that you will surround yourself by people that you love. You are in my prayers. Lots of love.

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  2. I have just discovered these blogs and it is the first time that I have found accounts of dementia that I can relate to my own experiences of being in the early stages. What I really appreciate is the pain and the humour mixed together as I have found this the only way to cope. Thank you! I feel less alone.

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